by Hope
I had essentially the most wonderful alternative this previous weekend. I hid out in a dungeon. Me and my ideas, my books and my laptop computer. I actually did want a reset. And my greatest buddy supplied the house for me to just do that. It was fantastic! And I extremely advocate it to everybody.
Not likely a dungeon
Okay, it wasn’t actually a dungeon. It’s a room in her basement that has no home windows. It’s cozy and darkish down there. I might evaluate it to a comfortable model of a sensory deprivation chamber. These freak me out a bit. However this was excellent.
No duties. No sound. I arrived Friday late afternoon with a full again pack of thought upsetting supplies, journals, highlighters, and pens galore. And went instantly into isolation.
Listening intently
I started my time with a plea to God to satisfy me right here. To direct and information me. After which I spent the subsequent 48 hours diving in, sitting in my ideas, learning and debating, and respiration. (Okay, I did take a break Saturday night to get pleasure from a household meal with my buddy, her household, Princess and Princess’ boyfriend.)
And I listened. I listened to my coronary heart, to my head, to the steering the books gave me, and ready myself for no matter is to come back subsequent. I made lists upon lists. Lists of what I may do for work. Documented the life I need to construct. Questions I would like to think about.
It was so, so good.
Beginning over once more
In some ways, I’m beginning over once more. Single once more. Job change within the speedy future. Youngsters are all grown and principally unbiased. I wanted this time to breathe and deal with what I need. Whereas I didn’t come away with the solutions and readability I had hoped for. I discovered a lot and have a lot hope for the longer term to come back.
Two issues which were made very clear to me during the last couple of months as I’ve dug into self care and studying like loopy:
- We consider 100% of what we inform ourselves. And what we consider we obtain. I have to do higher at appreciating who I’m, what I’m able to, and particularly understanding my very own price.
- Change doesn’t imply failure or shortage. It’s alternative for development, enchancment, and extra! “Each new starting begins with an ending” (no thought who stated that) – and that is my new starting! I’m prepared for it. It’s going to be the very best chapter but, I consider that.

Hope is a digital advertising and marketing supervisor and foster/adoptive single mother to 5 youngsters. She has run her personal consulting firm for over 15 years and took a leap of religion returning to the company world in 2021 to a job and group she loves! Hope started sharing her journey with the BAD group within the Spring of 2015 and looks like she has lastly mastered the steadiness between household first and sensible monetary choices.